Wednesday, 13 August 2008

The Difference Between Men & Women

Sunday, 27 July 2008

Flipping Heck

I only have one thing to say...............................I'm HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I don't like it! Oh, I guess that was 2 things to say! LOL :o)

Saturday, 26 July 2008


If you had to lose one of your five senses which would you give up?

I think it would have to be smell. I wouldn't want to lose ANY of them and hope I never have to find out what it would feel like. I am thankful and blessed to have all 5. I can't imagine a world where I can't see my baby girl growing up. I love food too much to get rid of taste but then again actually maybe that would be a better one to get rid off, perhaps that would help my diet! Oh No! But wait! Imagine smelling something gorgeous like fresh bread cooking and then not being able to taste it - that would suck!

Hearing and sight are the 2 most important to me and then I wanna be able to feel my babies hugs so touch has to come third so really it is between taste and smell, I think I'll stick with smell.

So, what about you guys?

Friday, 25 July 2008

Fitting In Spiritually

I just read my gorgeous friend Syd's post spiritually speaking and it reminded me that I have been meaning to do a post myself regarding the same topic. Those who have been reading my blog from the beginning will know I have been on a bit of a journey to find god or find a religion that I actually believe or feel I fit in with.

I struggled with the whole getting Kadyn christened thing as I didn't want to stand there and make loads of promises about Jesus and stuff that I didn't whole heartedly believe in myself. However, I did want to thank god for my beautiful baby girl. I have never doubted god himself, just the fact that some people believe there is only ONE path to him. I have always thought good people in many different religions will all reach god in the end, we all just have different ways of getting there.

Most religions are not tolerant of other religions and I really struggle with that. I read loads of different stuff in my quest to find a religion I felt like I really agreed with and I finally came across this:

Click here for more details on : Unitarianism

They believe that:

  • everyone has the right to seek truth and meaning for themselves.
  • the fundamental tools for doing this are your own life experience, your reflection upon it, your intuitive understanding and the promptings of your own conscience.
  • the best setting for this is a community that welcomes you for who you are, complete with your beliefs, doubts and questions.

They can be called religious ‘liberals’:

  • religious because we unite to celebrate and affirm values that embrace and reflect a greater reality than self.
  • liberal because we claim no exclusive revelation or status for ourselves; because we afford respect and toleration to those who follow different paths of faith.

We are called ‘Unitarians’:

  • because of our traditional insistence on divine unity, the oneness of God.
  • because we affirm the essential unity of humankind and of creation.

I like it!! I feel like I fit in here! I called the fellowship in my area and spoke to a lovely lady who's father is a retired minister. Him and his wife travelled down to meet us and he is going to perform the naming ceremony for Kadyn in September. I feel so much more comfortable about the whole thing. We have some beautiful readings about life and children and I will post them on here after the ceremony.

I have always wanted to be part of a religion, church or group. I feel like an outsider sometimes and I often wish I had found that faith that so many people have at an early age. I read some blogs where people seem to have an almost second family, their church family. It seems like a different world sometimes. Everyone seems happy and kind. There are people that are married to their high school sweethearts, have a lovely houses, beautiful children, active busy lives, happy happy happy, they go to church. I often wish I WAS in that kind of life. I went down a different path I guess.

I think the whole community thing is so much bigger in the states too, one of the reasons I sometimes wish we had stayed there. Well, actually I don't so much wish we had stayed there, more like wonder what it would have been like if we had. Would I have become part of some kind of group. Would I have done loads of activities I enjoyed (they always had way more activities and social events at school in the USA than over here ever did) or would I have always felt like the outsider over there. The English one. The one that speaks differently.

Actually I have always wanted to fit in. To blend into the background. Be the same as other people. I don't like being different, I don't want to be different. I don't want to be unique which is a bit weird I suppose - I want to be like other people - It makes me feel better. I don't know why!!

I guess that is why I was searching to fit into a religion. I wanted to be able to say I am a ........blar blar blar. I wasn't content being the ONLY one that thought the things I thought and felt the way I did and it was a huge relief and comfort when I found the Unitarian website and read what they believed in. I no longer felt like I was ALONE - there are others out there that think a little like ME!!

Why We Love Children No.3

Back in Time No.2 (15 years old)

20th October 1990
I'm in love! Me and mum went down to Yorkshire on Friday for Alison and Paul's wedding on Saturday. At the disco afterwards I had a right laugh. Paul is in the navy and 12 of his navy mates were supposed to be there but 6 of them had to go to the gulf, so there were only 6 at the disco. Paul is 24 but all his mates were different ages. I fancied this one called Robby or Bobby, I'm not sure which one, but this girl Rachel was dancing with him. Then all the other blokes were talking to me. Someone dropped £5 on the floor so I asked Robby's mate if it was his. All of them were pissed then him and Robby put their arms around me and said to keep it, so I did.

I danced from 7.30pm till 1am in the morning. The last song was "you will never walk alone" and one of the sailors said "would you care to dance?". I got up and we danced. He goes "How come ya not drunk?". I was a bit but I went and said "Dunno me mum would kill me" and he said "Why? under age drinking?" and I go "yeah suppose". He laughed and said "How old are ya?" and I said "15" and he said "Oh god you will get me in trouble". At the end of the night he said "I'd kiss you goodnight but I can't". I said "Why not?". He looked at me and smiled and then....he kissed me (Heaven) It was lovely.

I've decided to get married now! Hopefully to a sailor! One problem is I don't know how old this bloke was or what his name is. I think he is about 20 and I found out his name from Jackie. It was "Muppet". That is his nickname. I am in love. I really wanna know what his real name is and how old he is. I wanna get off with him. He is really nice. I hope I see him again. I don't know how I am going to but I hope I do.Maybe if Alison and Paul get a kid and it gets christened. I LOVE HIM! I can't stop thinking about him.

23rd October 1990
I'm lying on my bed thinking about him. I can't stop, I think my brain is going to burst! I wanna be older than I am. I wanna be his girlfriend. I really wanna see him again.


I know this sounds stupid but I don't wanna be friends with my age lot and I wanna live up north. All my mates are druggies and don't care about people.up north they care about people!

Reading back through all my diary entries, no wonder my mum was obsessed with me "doing IT". She used to go on and on about "IT" and I used to get really annoyed but now I kinda see why. I CONSTANTLY talked about boys! I fancied a different flipping boy almost every other day! All I wrote about was BOYS! I didn't actually lose my big V until I was 17 so she really had nothing to worry about but I sure can see why she was!

Just One Nostril

I can only breath through one flipping nostril! It is doing my head in and had me awake for most of the night. I've got that horrible snot thing going on where nothing comes out when you blow ya nose but if you snif you get a back wash of nastiness which then sticks in your throat and you have to keep swallowing over and over again to get rid of the feeling of something being stuck down there! God that was a long sentence! It was also probably way too much info regarding snot that any of you readers really wanted to read but sod it - I've said it now!

The Ranting Scotsman

One of the blogs I read is "The Ranting Scotsman". His "People Suck" series is SO funny! I love his rants! They are usually about something that I rant about too apart from I do the ranting in my head and he does it out loud on his blog and he says it way better than I could ever say it!!

He asked my to pimp his band for him which, while it's not totally my cup of tea, I don't mind doing at all. I do actually like some of the mellow tracks on his MySpace page and he has a really nice voice. As you all know though, I am more of a Lynden David Hall kinda girl myself.

Pimping Time - Albany Down

So, that's my random act of kindness for the day :o)

Thursday, 24 July 2008

Why We Love Children No.2

Back In Time No.1 (Just Turned 15 years old)

10th September 1990
It was my birthday today! Everybody tried to throw me in the grunden and the pond but I screamed so they didn't bother. I had an argument with Amanda but we made up. I got some really nice presents and my dad remembered to send me a card. I'm having a party on Saturday (woo sexy). I think I fancy Scott (he is a bit of a prick though).

11th September 1990
I had a massive argument with my mum. She said I wasn't aloud alcohol there when she had said I could and she said she was going to stay in (stupid cow) But.....I made up with her and she said she would supply some (better than nothing).

19th September 1990
I've been off school today and yesterday because I have a cold. My party was a right laugh. I got pissed along with everyone else. In the end there was about 50 people there. Karen got paryletic. She threw up all over my mums bed and carpet and my presents. My mum was great she bought loads of cider and we all had a right laugh! I fancy: ? I like a lot:Richard,Ricky,Scott.W. I'm going to school tomorrow (Boo) Talk to ya lata!

Can you believe I called my mum a cow?! Sorry mum! I can't imagine allowing Kadyn to get pissed on her 15th birthday either, poor girl aint going to be aloud out until she is at least 25!! LMAO :o)

Back In Time - Introduction

I found my old diary the other day and was having a read through. I thought it might be funny if I posted my entries on my blog. I am going to post them word for word as they were wrote nearly 18 years ago! I'm gonna call this series....Back In Time!! I will make the diary entries in italics so you can tell what I wrote back then and see the comments from now. Hope that makes sense :o)

Tuesday, 22 July 2008

There Is Light And Snot

I have not cried for the last few days! It can't be the "happy pills" working yet as they don't kick in for at least a few weeks so I reckon it is just cos I can see light at the end of the tunnel. My time of the month is over and that makes a huge difference. I am just left with about 10 massive spots on my face which is really attractive...not! I cleaned up my kitchen and lounge which is a start. I decided to do one thing at a time instead of trying to do it ALL!

On another note, we woke up this morning to the door buzzer going and I had totally forgot that the sky man was coming round to install sky plus. I looked a right old state! Mashed up bed head hair, spots not covered with any make-up, boobs hanging as no bra on, top with Kadyn's dribble stains all over it! Hmmm...Nice! Anyway, I let him in and went to get Kadyn out of my bed. I walked back into the lounge chatting away to the guy and then looked at Kadyn....OH.MY.GOD! My child looked like an alien baby!!!! He must of thought she had some kind of skin disfigurement. She had dark green snot all over her face. When I say all over, I mean ALL over!! From above her eyes to under her chin! Thick, dried and crusted SNOT! Totally caked all over her poor little face! I quickly proceeded to remove the snot but it was like flipping green glue stuck to my baby's face! After lots of wet wipes and plenty of tears she finally looked like a human baby again!

Sunday, 20 July 2008

If... No.1

So, I have got this new book called "If... (Questions for the game of life) by Evelyn McFarlane & James Saywell. It is full of questions that can be used at a dinner party, icebreaker between new acquaintances , it can even help you get to know yourself better (apparently).

Anyhoo, I thought it would be cool to pick questions and ask them on my blog and then my blog readers could answer them too. Now I know I don't have many readers so it could end up that I am the only one answering the questions but I still thought it would be fun.

So the first question is:

If you had to eliminate a single type of animal forever more, which would you choose?

Well, the first thing that came into my mind is that I don't want to eliminate ANY animal coz I love animals. Then I tried to think about the animals I'm not too keen on and I thought of earwigs and daddy longlegs and then I thought "pants! they are not animals, they are insects!" so now I'm stuck again. Urrrrrrrrm, think think think......god this one is hard! Then I thought of a snake and again "pants! that is a reptile" Urrrrrrm.... Right, I have sat here for about 20 minutes now trying to think of an animal I don't like and I can't!!!!!!!!! Flippin heck, I'm really good at this game aren't I??! Ok, so I think I will pick those mean nasty horrible pitbull dogs, the ones that are vicious and attack other animals.

What about you? Leave me a comment with your answer or you can answer it on your own blog and sign Mr.Linky.

Thursday, 17 July 2008

Post Natal Depression

Went to the docs today as been very tearful for weeks now. Had to do a questionnaire thing and it all added up to the fact I have post natal depression! I have suffered from depression about 7 years ago and was worried throughout my pregnancy that I would get post natal depression especially as the circumstances around and during my pregnancy were not the best BUT I didn't get it! I was so chuffed with myself and proud of myself for doing it all on my own and coping with everything and then all of a sudden .... BLAM! It kinda came at me from nowhere! I've had the odd few days over the last 11 months where I have had the odd day here and there with crying and feeling down but I normally get over it pretty quick and pull myself together but this time the tears just seem to not want to go away! So, almost 11 months later the poxy depression has caught up with me and there was me thinking I could escape it!!!!!!

I have no motivation with ANYTHING really. I get upset as I don't have many friends to do stuff with during the day and it can be quite lonely on your own all day and all night with a baby. So to fix that I went online and met other mums in the same sort of position as me. Although they are not single mums they are still finding it hard during the day and crave a bit of adult conversation so I made friends with them and arranged meet ups etc.. BUT....I can't be bothered. I can't be bothered to get dressed, wash my hair, do my make-up, iron my clothes, leave the house - I just don't have the energy and all I want to do is sleep! It is rubbish - I am complaining about not having friends and then when I do I don't want to see them!! Anyway, like I said, I went to the docs and have been given some happy pills so hopefully I can get my umph back and get back to my normal self.

Kadyn is currently eating a magazine so better go sort her out - why is it that they always want everything they are not meant to have rather than all the cool toys they have got? LOL

Anyway - hopefully this is the first step to getting fixed!!

Monday, 14 July 2008

Wishing I Didn't Wish Stuff Like That

I went to see UB40 last night in an open air concert. I originally bought 4 tickets and was going to go with my daughters dad, his brother and his brothers girlfriend however when i made my big decision a few weeks ago to get rid of all ifs buts and maybes out of my life I also decided that socialising together would make the whole healing process take much longer. I therefore decided that going with my friends would be a much better option.

I can count my friends on one hand (sometimes I think this is a good thing and sometimes I think it's not) so when one was on holiday, one hated UB40 and the other one couldn't afford transport to get to me it left me and my buddie Miche as the only 2 peeps going to the concert!

Now don't get me wrong, I had a good time but I always feel like something is missing. I hate it cos I usually always feel like that at concerts. Most people tend to be in couples or big family groups. Even though I'm not there on my own, I'm with my friend I kinda feel a bit empty, like something is missing. I really want to be there with my "boyfriend" (the one I don't have yet just in case I am confusing you) I really wanna be there with a man, a man that loves me and it really bugs me that I feel like that! I really DON'T wanna feel like that! I really wanna be able to just go out with my mates and ENJOY the night without WISHING it be different, WISHING I was there with someone special making a memory that creates a bond together, making a memory that you can chat about and reminisce about later down the line. I flipping WISH I was just content sharing memories with friends and I feel like a cow because I'm not. Sometimes I just wanna be loved by a MAN! How crap is that!!!!!!

Saturday, 12 July 2008

Change Of Diet

So, I have lost over 17 pounds now! I actually stopped doing the lighter life diet last week and have just been eating really carefully since then and lost another couple of pounds on my own! I am still on my mission to get to 140 pounds but it just might take a little longer now but that is cool with me :o)

Why We Love Children No.1

Instructions For Properly Hugging A Baby

First....find a baby!

Be sure that the object that you found was indeed a baby by employing classic sniffing techniques.

Next you will need to flatten the baby before beginning the hugging process.

The "paw slide". Simply slide paws around the baby and prepare for possible close up.

Finally, if a camera is present you will need to execute the difficult and patented "hug, smile and lean" to achieve the best photo.

Friday, 11 July 2008

New Neighbours

Gypsies have moved into my back garden!!!!!!! There are about 5 caravans and a bloody noisy generator and 10 dirty kids with no shoes on running around the place ! The police have been out to them but it usually takes about 2 weeks to move them on as you have to get court orders and stuff. They have already been scouting around in our communal back garden for stuff they can take. I have had to bring my nice bird feeder in as they usually take metal stuff as they can get good money for metal. They asked my next door neighbours if they could have the kids bike and football! Cheeky little mites. They are known for leaving behind a lot of rubbish and the generator they have got running is really noisy. I thought a helicopter was hovering over my flat at first until I realised what it was!

OK, so this pic is a bit of an exaggeration but I'm sure if my new neighbours weren't moved on soon this is what my back garden would look like in a few months. At the moment there are about 4 of the little orange ones on the right hand side of the picture and 1 yellow one in the middle!

Beware Of Identity Theft

Tuesday, 1 July 2008

A New Trend

There once was a time when my mum used to really embarrass me. I think I have grown up a lot since having Kadyn as now the same things don't really embarrass me any more, in fact, they make me smile. Like when my mum wears slip on shoes with socks! For years it has been slip on gold shoes with white socks but the other day I just had to get a photo of the "new style"....I Love My Mumski!!!!!!!!

The Power Of Our Actions

I really like this story I read so I thought I would share it with you:

"One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, 'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd.' I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes. My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks, they really should get lives'. He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!'. There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now. I would have never hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to play a little football
with my friends and he said yes. We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him. Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said, 'Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!'. He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends...

When we were seniors we began to think about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship. Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak on Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great.

He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes I was jealous! Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, 'Hey, big guy, you'll be great!'. He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.'Thanks' he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began 'Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story'.

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.'Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable'.

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions.

With one small gesture you can change a person's life.

For better or for worse.

God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.

Look for good in others."

Wednesday, 25 June 2008

Pounds AND inches.....going going going!!

Another 3.6 pounds gone so that is a total of 15.2 pounds all together which is over a stone! That's in just 3 weeks! Feels like about 3 years though I have to say! (a stone is 14 pounds for you USA bods that don't know). So that is my first stone GONE!! So, if I can do that well and I have not been perfect on it, just think what I could do if I stuck to the rules 100% and WAS perfect! So, that's what I'm gonna try to do this week!!

Oh, and inches!! We got measured again this week and I have lost a whopping 6 1/2 inches off my waist. Another 2 1/2 off my bust and also 2 off my hips!! Excellent !!!!!!!!

I also got my self respect back and sorted out my love life! I am officially young free and PROPERLY single. Got rid of half hearted substitutions and feel so much better now :o) I was hanging on to ifs buts and maybes and felt like my life was on hold waiting for someone else to make their mind up! No longer!! I made MY mind up instead!! I know it is gonna be a bit of a tough road now and then but right now I'M COOL and feel POSITIVE :o)

Friday, 20 June 2008

The Devil Cat

This is proof that the cat is definitely a DEVIL cat!

Wednesday, 18 June 2008

A Little Bit More Gone

Another 2.8 pounds has vacated my body!!!!!!!! Wooooo Hooooo!! Considering I had a very difficult week and cheated a little I am very pleased. I tell you what, it is HARD not EATING! Anyway, this week is going to be a good week. I decided to try the Thai chilli soup instead of having vanilla milkshake EVERY day 4 times a day! It was actually quite nice, not bad. I better go now as I have physio on my back. I just dropped Kadyn off at Nursery for the first time!

Saturday, 14 June 2008

I Must Be Getting Old!

You know what? I must be getting old as I've really got into bird watching! I love it when a new kind of bird lands on my feeder and I get all excited wondering what he is. My friend came over for lunch the other day and we were sat watching the wildlife and she announced "ooooh, you have a nut hatch on your feeder!" Apparently they are quite rare. I proceeded to tell her all about my woodpecker and thrush family as my squirrels came over and peered into my lounge - I love it! It is like a little wildlife haven, that is until the devil black cat comes round trying to kill everything. Don't get me wrong, I love cats! I love animals in general, they are much nicer than humans if you ask me! BUT, I don't like THIS cat! I stand at my patio doors yelling at him to go away and he just looks at me as if I'm mad. My neighbours probably think I am mad but anyway, that's not the point. He just stares at me then carries on trying to KILL things! The other week I looked into the garden and one of my squirrels was sunbathing on his back with all his legs stuck up in the air! He was of course DEAD! I went over and picked him up and put him inside the bushes. My mum said I should put him in the bin but I just couldn't do that, that seemed awful to put him in with all the rubbish, poor little thing. Anyway, without wanting to go into too much detail, it was death caused by eye removal. One eye was just missing! So, I have been trying to work out who the murderer was. I have 2 suspects. The first is a huge nasty big crow who goes around bullying all the other birds and chasing the squirrels when they get some bread. The second one is the devil cat! Or they could be in it together!! The cat does the killing and the crow does the eye removal! Until I know the culprit, they are both not in my good books! I know the whole thing about innocent until proven guilty but hey, they are both mean and nasty dudes!

So, I only have 3 squirrels in my tree now. I had to buy some squirrel proof bird feeders cos they chewed my plastic ones to bits when their nuts ran out trying to get into the birds stash!

My friend Jez came over last night and I was showing him pictures of Kadyn and he saw the pics of my squirrels and birds and was all concerned as to why I was taking pictures of "animals". "It's just a squirrel" he repeated about 10 times! Anyhoo, I know it is JUST a squirrel and JUST a bird but I like them, I like them a lot!

Friday, 13 June 2008

No More 13!!!

I am no longer 13 stone something, I am now 12 stone something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am NEVER going to be 13 stone something EVER again!!!! I am not going to update my weight ticker wotsit until my official weigh in next week but I think I have lost another pound according to MY scales!! Love It!!!! I was feeling a bit deflated with the whole thing the other day and then I watched a programme on the TV about big babies. Babies that were born to obese women and the babies were a whole stone when they were born! One was 15 pounds!!! Poor baba's!! Then the mums were feeding them whole bags of chips and junk food. One baby was having a pint of milk every 2 hours!!! The mums seemed to think it was funny but I just felt awful! Those poor little baba's don't stand a chance! Anyway, it set me right back into the right frame of mind - I'm on a roll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woooo Hoooo!

Wednesday, 11 June 2008

Only 13 More!

One week down only 13 more weeks to go. I have decided to narrow it down a bit more so it doesn't seem like quite such a hurdle. Just taking 1 month at a time! I MISS food, not cos I'm hungry as I'm not at all but just cos I miss food. I MISS eating! Anyway, I had 2 tiny hiccups but instead of it completely cocking up the diet or turning them into major hiccups, I drew a line under them and moved on and I have lost a whopping total of 8.8 pounds in ONE week!!! I am drinking about 3 litres of water but will try this week to get that up to 4 litres.

When you get to class each week you have to fill in a sheet to say which milkshakes,soups or bars you want for the following week. There is banana,chocolate,caramel,raspberry,strawberry and vanilla milkshake. Chicken,mushroom or Thai soup and about 3 different bars. The bars taste the same as far as I'm concerned and just taste like chewy powder yukiness. The chicken soup isn't that bad, just tastes like normal cupasoup which I'm also not a huge fan of. You have to have 4 things a day so 28 in total. Most people's lists are very varied with different flavoured shakes and soups and a bar each day (you can only have 1 bar a day). My list was easy! 22 vanilla shakes and 6 choc ones please! (and even then I only ordered chocolate ones cos I didn't want everyone to think I was a total loon!) I am definitely an all or nothing person. That is my personality all over. Do something obsessively for a week or 2 until I can't stand it anymore. Then stay off it for a while then all of a sudden back on it obsessively. Why can't I just do a little of everything??? LOL Anyway, I'm waffling again!

So, I'm 8.8 pounds lighter than I was last week - Wooooooooo Hoooooooooo! I actually feel much better too, not as tired all the time.

Better go as Loola has got the hang of crawling more than 3 steps forwards now and is on her way into the kitchen!!!

Sunday, 8 June 2008

One Step, Two Steps....

I did some exercise! I went over to mums and we went to dinton pastures which has some lovely lakes that you can walk round. It was really sunny and there were lots of people out having picnics and stuff. We walked round the whole BIG lake which is about 3 miles I think! Mum has a bad back too but it is something different to mine and she finds it easier to walk slower where I find it better if I really strut and go quite fast so that is a bit difficult. I sometimes strut off ahead of her and then strut back to her as we go around. Anyway - I am proud that I got off my fat bum and did some EXERCISE! Yay Hay!!!!!!

Daddy just called to say he is on his way. He was meant to have Kadyn back by 6 but he is never on time! Looking forward to seeing her :o)

Day 5 Of Lighter Life

Well, amazingly, I'm NOT hungry! No FOOD for the last 4 days! You would think on 530 calories a day I would be STARVING but I'm not. The milkshakes add up to 530 cals by the way just in case I started to confuse you. Your body goes into ketosis which means it uses the energy in the FAT you have stored in your body and believe me I have enough of it so I'm feeling COOL! I didn't drink as much as I should have yesterday so today I am on a mission to do better with the water AND do some exercise!!!!! My back feels much better this morning so gonna finish my cleaning now and then jump in the shower and head on over to my mums. Daddy will bring Kadyn home tonight so I have the day to myself and I'm sure she is having lots of fun with her Daddy.

Water, Water, Water............................................

Saturday, 7 June 2008

A Bit Of This & A Bit Of That!

OK, so I haven't been around for a while. I've had so much going on and just haven't been in the "blogging zone". I think I just blogged myself out! Also, I'm not lucky enough to blog totally honestly about what is going on in my life as I have readers that would be hurt or offended or affected by what I wrote about so I don't write about it but I wish I could if that makes sense???

Anyway, I've had a tough few weeks but I'm sorting myself out! My diet went totally to pot and I ended up putting weight on, getting all upset about it and deleting my diet blog. I just don't have the time to do as much as I want with the 2 blogs I already have and cos it wasn't going well it just seemed like a mission and a chore rather than something I enjoyed.

I am finally in the zone now and last Tuesday I started the Lighter Life Diet! It is a bit extreme I know but I AM GOING TO DO IT! I have a friend who did it and went from a size 18 to size 10 in 14 weeks! In the 14 week foundation plan you lose on average 3 stone! are not aloud to eat ANY FOOD! You have 4 milkshakes a day which give you all the protein, vitamins & minerals that you need to stay healthy and they are yummy which is a bonus! You have a 2 hour counselling session a week which is the bit I really wanted. I have yo yo dieted for years and I need to work out why I have such a crap relationship with food! You have to get the ok from your doctor and they see you monthly too. Anyway, I have been doing it for 4 days so far and I have already lost 7 pounds! Flipping Fantastic!!!!!!!!!!! You have to drink 4 litres of water a day which I am struggling to do as I usually go days without drinking ANYTHING (bad I know) but I am just about managing just over 3 litres and I'm trying to get it up a bit each day.

I have to keep telling myself it is JUST for 3 months, 14 measly weeks and I will have lost all this flabber labber and be slim again. After the 14 weeks they start to introduce food slowly back into your diet. That way you get to know what foods are good for you individually and what foods are trigger foods. Trigger foods are ones that make you more hungry and want to overeat etc. Everyone has different trigger foods. The way they see it is that if you have a problem with alcohol or drugs they remove them TOTALLY from your system so that's what they are doing with the food as FOOD is my DRUG and right now it is making me ill. It is making me fat and miserable and I wanna fix it! I had actually asked my doctor for counselling but was told that because I don't make myself throw up it is not officially classed as an eating disorder. How stupid is that??????! So, I stuff my face and don't throw up which is making me FAT - surely that is still a problem? Anyway, obviously not in the official medical terms! SO, that's why I started Lighter Life, mainly for the counselling as I want to get to the bottom of WHY I binge eat especially when I know it makes me so miserable.

Blimey, can't believe I just said all that out loud!

Kadyn (aka Little Loola) has been much much more active and wanting far more attention, another reason why I have not been blogging as much as I need to entertain her way more than I used to. She has started crawling now and I have been slightly, only slightly mind you, better at keeping her blog updated. Daddy just came to pick her up as she is spending the weekend with him. I am quite relieved as my back is really sore today and I find it really difficult to pick her up and stuff which is very frustrating for both of us.

I am going to TRY to tidy up my house now as it is so much easier without Kadyn around. She gets all upset if I go in a different room to her and if I take her in the room and try to hoover she screams the place down. I don't know why she hates the hoover so much!

After that I'm gonna go over to my Mum's and do the Naming Ceremony invitations or at least try to and possible clean my car. Although I'm tempted to get some little dude to do it at one of the drive in ones - hmmm, that sounds like a much better idea.

Right, finally a BIG SORRY to all the blogging buddies that I have not been over to see lately like Pam and Melanie. I will try to catch up as soon as poss. However, I'm scared to look at Melanie's as she writes SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many posts, I bet there is like 568 to look at! LMAO She is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better at keeping up than me!!!!!!!!!!

A big sorry to Jen too as because she went private a little while ago (which I totally understand) she doesn't show up in my google reader anymore. I should make sure I go over to her blog as soon as I've finished looking at the reader wotsit more often!

And my best blogging buddie of all SYD! I love ya, I read your blog all the time, I'm just rubbish at commenting as much as I really want to! I think I will come back to your posts and write what I wanna say once I have done Kadyns lunch, or changed her bum, or put her to bed and then before I know it a month has gone by!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, gotta go pee AGAIN - guess that what drinking 4 litres of water a day does!!! Could you imagine if I was going on a long car journey! Nightmare! :o)

Tuesday, 22 April 2008

Dodgy Knee & A Few Odd People

Yesterday I went to the hospital to meet with the consultant about my dodgy knees. My doctor said I would need to have key-hole surgery on my right knee but the consultant said he didn't think it would make it any better. He is sending me for an MRI scan to see if there is anything else they can do. I literally have to pull myself up stairs with the hand rails. I have joined a gym and have an exercise plan all in place so hopefully that will help strengthen the muscles around my knees.

I had to take Loola to the hospital with me as I had nobody to look after her. I was also a bit peeved off as she was supposed to start baby signing classes in the morning and my hospital appointment was meant to be in the afternoon but last week they called to say they had swapped clinics around and I had to go in the morning or wait until June! Anyways.....I'm waffling again!

I sign in at reception and take a seat in the waiting room. All of a sudden out of nowhere this late 50's, early 60's, greasy haired, overweight lady appeared. Her clothes were hanging off her and she was dragging a wheeled shopping bag. She stuck her face right up to Loola and said "You are beautiful and have lovely big eyes". I have to admit that for a minute I wished she would go away. I felt a bit embarrassed by her. I told myself not to judge and not to care what everyone else thought and I listened to her. She told me all about her 3 grown up kids and her grandchildren and the fact that she doesn't see them very often as her children won't bring them over to see her. She lives at home caring for her hubby in a wheel chair, has 3 dogs and buys something from the charity shop in the hospital every time she comes. We chatted away for quite a while and then she noticed another baby and off she went to tell them the same story. She was obviously lonely and I'm glad I had a little chit chat with her.

So, I'm still sitting in the waiting room and all of a sudden a nurse hands me a numbered card and tells me to go to X Ray. X Ray! Nobody said anything about an X Ray - what am I meant to do with my baby while I'm having an X Ray????? So, I asked the nurse just that question. "Well you can't take her in with you can you" was the nurses answer. Da Err!!!! I knew that thank you very much! With an "oh my god what do I do now" look on my face, she said "I will watch her at reception for you". So, my name got called and the nurse came to get Loola asking me "Where is your handbag? Can you take it with you please as I do not want to be responsible for it!" and off she whisked Loola and I got dragged into the X Ray room. OH.MY.GOD! you don't want to be responsible for my handbag but you are responsible for my child! Something felt all wrong. I'm sure I was only in the X Ray room for a few minutes but it felt like ages and all the time I was worrying about Loola left all alone with the strange nurse. You know how some people are just normal, nice people - she didn't come across as one of those normal kinds that just make you feel comfy. There was something odd about her. She didn't really want to watch Loola, and to be fair to her, she shouldn't have to BUT I still let her take her. Anyway....My X Ray was done and Loola was fine, not a peep out of her, I thanked the nurse and was on my way!

I had a chat with the consultant and while I waited in another waiting room for my MRI details I met another Odd Soul. Crazy Hazy was his name. Well his real name was Gary. I had seen him in the X Ray department and actually thought he was drunk. He was loud and his shoelaces were trailing behind him. The nurse that ended up watching Loola was trying to get him to do them up. I think he was in his 40's, long scruffy hair with tatoo's all the way up his arms and all over his hands. He did look like a bit of a ruffian. There I go judging again. Anyway, when I came out of the consultants there he was again. Rocking back and forwards on the chair, talking to himself.

I started to feed Kadyn her bottle while he proceeded to tell me that he was scared. He just wanted to get out of the hospital. He kept saying "Gary don't be silly, you mustn't act like this". He then told me he used watch football a lot and fight all the time, showing me some of his upper cut jab punches. From what he told me he was obviously a bit of a footie hooligan in his younger years and there he was telling me he was frightened to have another operation on his knee cos he had already had quite a few. He went off on one telling me how good all the nurses are to him and how brilliant the NHS is but that he just wanted to go home. I told him not to be scared and that he could go before me if he wanted to. He smiled and said he was just waiting for a document to be signed and then he could go home. I told him that when I get really worried or upset I rock too, it must be a comfort thing. "You don't think I'm mad then?" he said. "People call me Crazy Hazy cos they all think I'm nuts". The nurse came out and handed him the signed document and told him he could go home. He apologised to me and said he hoped he hadn't scared my baby. Again, I'm glad I had a little chit chat with him too!!!

So, now I'm just waiting for the MRI appointment to come through so I can get my knee scanned...........

Lesson: Don't judge people by their appearance. Even if they are a bit odd, they might just need someone to talk to!

Saturday, 19 April 2008

Night Out With Beanie

Me and my friend Jane aka Beanie, used to go out ALL the time. We used to spend all weekend together and then get home and call each other - we obviously had so much to talk about. We lived in each other's pockets and had so much fun together. As the years have passed we hardly ever see each other now due to one thing or another, kids, work etc.. and I miss our fun nights out - we have done some crazy stuff! We finally got it together and went out for our friend Mark's birthday on the 9th March. We both drank way too much but we had a right giggle!!

Kez's Easter Visit

Easter half term, my special buddie Kez came down to see us. She has been going through some hard times lately and still is bless her. She was diagnosed with Fibrosarcoma cancer of the soft tissue last year. You can read more about her story here. The first night she was down we stayed up almost all night listening to music, drinking wine and catching up on everything that has been going on in both our lives. I am rubbish at doing make up but Kez is really good so she did my face up and then we took loads of silly pictures together. Kez has always had this sexy pout that she does a bit like posh spice. She tried to get me to do it but I just looked like I was ready to beat someone up - she looked sexy and I looked angry! I tried her specs on and couldn't see a freakin thing but I think I look quite sophisticated with glasses! We had a good old laugh which was much needed by both of us :o)

See here for more updates on the Dowell's Easter visit.

Kez - I love you!

Friday, 11 April 2008

Fairy Tale Land

This is the fairy tale that should have been read to us when we were little:

Once upon a time in a land far away, a beautiful, independent, self-assured princess happened upon a frog as she sat contemplating ecological issues on the shores of an unpolluted pond in a verdant meadow near her castle.
The frog hopped into the princess' lap and said: " Elegant Lady, I was once a handsome prince, until an evil witch cast a spell upon me. One kiss from you, however, and I will turn back into the dapper, young prince that I am and then, my sweet, we can marry and set up housekeeping in your castle with my mother, where you can prepare my meals, clean my clothes, bear my children, and forever feel grateful and happy doing so. "
That night, as the princess dined sumptuously on lightly sautéed frog legs seasoned in a white wine and onion cream sauce, she chuckled and thought to herself:
I don't freakin think so!

Flaunt It Friday #3

Today we have to flaunt 5 of our favourite things. I have loads of favourite things so this was hard to narrow it down to 5 but here goes. I don't have much time either so I am doing mine with photo's.

1. My Bed and my Body Pillow - I LOVE sleeping and curling up all comfy cosy in my bed. I can't actually sleep properly without my body pillow! I had to buy a second one to keep at my mums for when I stay over there. I wrap my legs around it and it helps straighten out your back if you sleep on your side - it goes in between my legs (no giggling!).... I LOVE it!!!

2. Candles - I have a candle fetish - Well, actually I have a candle and light fetish - I just love ambient light. I have a whole cupboard FULL of candles.

3. Pictures - My house is full of photo's! There are photo's stuck on the walls in EVERY room in my house. They used to be of me and my friends but now they are ALL of Little Loola ;o)

4. My Big Red Painting - I painted it!! I designed it and painted it all by my little old self :o) It even has tiny red lights all the way round it which look so nice in my burgundy bedroom.

5. My IPod - dunno what I would do without all my tunes!

If you play don't forget to go over and sign Mr.Linky at Taken With A Grain Of Salt!

Thursday, 10 April 2008

So Cute....

Just went to check on my Little Loola - she had shuffled her way up to the top of the cot, grabbed hold of the pink donkey (at least I think it is a donkey) and fallen asleep - AHHHHHHHHHHH

I am gonna update her blog tomorrow (I hope) as I have been a little rubbish lately - have so much to tell too :o)

Ironing - YUK!

So, I'm catching up reading my friends blogs as I've been having a blogging break (I'll write more about that tomorrow). Anyway, I was reading Melanie's posts when I came across this one. Melanie and I are so much alike, it's unreal! It would be great if she lived in England as I think we would get on really well. Check out her post - I SO hear what she is saying.

This is my ironing pile!!! I HATE ironing so much, I tend to wait until there is nothing else left in my wardrobe to wear and then have a mad all day long ironing spree. Usually once every 2 weeks ish, depending how much Little Loola and I have gone out. We tend to stay in PJ's if we are lounging around the home. Lazy I know - but so much comfier and creates less washing/ironing and makes more time for PLAYING :o) I also have this weird OCD kinda thing where I can't put un-ironed things away in the drawers or wardrobes! I couldn't iron something to wear each day - I have friends that do that each morning - that would DO MY HEAD IN!! am I weird??? Yeah, I think I am but that's just me ;o) Why don't I just do it once a week, then it wouldn't take me all day!

I'm Super Woman!

Saw this over at Melanie's blog........

Fun Superhero Quiz For Blog

Give it a go and sign Mr.Linky if you try it so I can come see what superhero you are ;o)

Wednesday, 26 March 2008

I won, I won, I won....

OH MY GOD! I got into the Top 5 Blog Awards thingy - wow!!!!! Well, I didn't actually win as my mum pointed out earlier that you need to be number 1 to win but I came 5th and that is flippin wicked if you ask me!!!!

Check out Bluedreamer's Blog for details. I am so chuffed!!!!! Thanks Bluedreamer :o) Big Hug X

Frozen Out!

Hey peeps, I'm back. For the full low-down on my disastrous holiday check out my other blog.

Lessons I have learnt from this holiday:-

  • Make a list of all things you need to take on holiday so you do not forget things (like a heater).
  • Listen to your instincts (like take the heater).
  • Take "just in case" things (like hat,scarf,gloves,heater).
  • Do NOT leave it until the morning you are going on holiday to pack!
  • Do not try to organise everything and pack with nobody at home to occupy your baby!
  • Mums (aka Nana) are an absolute blessing (she came over to keep Kadyn company while I packed).
  • Driving to a destination 5 hours away is not a good idea on your own (trying to map read, put dummy back in etc.. is not easy whilst driving)
  • A roads do not have services or lay bys to stop on!
  • Once the cold is in your bones it's there to stay for a looooooooooong time!
  • When you go away for 2 days you get 85 new posts to read in ya google reader - imagine what it would be like if you were away a whole week! lol

Friday, 21 March 2008

6 Things Meme

I was tagged for this meme by Barb over at Skittle's Place. Thanks Barb :OD

Here are the rules:
(I think there should have been 6 rules as it would have gone better with the 6 thingies malarkey but that's just my ocd side showing through I guess) LOL ;o)

1. Link to the person that tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.
5. Let each random person know they have been tagged.

Six Things About Me:

  1. I pee about 2 or 3 times a night while sleeping (obviously I do actually get up and go the loo just in case you were wondering) I actually used to pee about 6 times a night but it seems to have halved since having my little baba.
  2. I love line dancing (not that I ever do it but I just really like it).
  3. I think Paul Walker is extremely sexy. Infact, Paul or Tyrese could come over for a cupa tea any time they like - not fussy which one, sheesh, I'd give em both a good ..........cup of tea of course! :o)
  4. I am a carbohydrate junkie - I eat way too much pasta and rice!
  5. My fave word at the moment is "synopsis" !
  6. I HATE cheese or anything cheesy or anything that has been near cheese - cheese is just WRONG!
I Tag:
I'm gonna cheat on this bit and tag anybody that has the time and wants to play. As I don't have loads of bloggy friends I don't want to annoy the few I have by keeping on tagging them. (Just for the record I LOVE being tagged though). So, if you do have time pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeease play and sign mr linky and I will check em all out when I get back from my hols :o)

Thought I better add a picture of Tyrese & Paul - cute or what! (not sure cute is the right word - SCRUMMY more like)

Happy Easter

Happy Easter everyone :o) Just a quickie to let you know that I won't be around for a week or so as I am off on holiday. It will be Little Loola's first holiday. We are off to a posh caravan with some very good friends and their two kids. It is up north by a beach so hopefully the weather will look up a bit as it is FREEZING at the mo! I'll catch up with you all when I get back................... Hugs XX

Easter Award

Chuck over at Foster Me Up gave me this award for stopping by her place last week (she made it herself too) - thank you Chuck :o)

Friday, 14 March 2008

Friday's Feast #2


On a scale of 1-10 (with 10 as highest), how much do you like your own handwriting?
8 - People are always saying how neat my handwriting is. I make my own greeting cards too and put my own handwriting on them. I wish I could do calligraphy though - I'm not that good :o)

Do you prefer baths or showers?
Showers -I feel much cleaner after having a shower and my shower is WICKED - I love it - it is really powerful and makes you wanna stay in there for ages. I WISH I had a seat in my shower though so I could enjoy it while relaxing ;o)

What was the last bad movie you watched?
The Secretary - very very STRANGE - dunno what else to say really. It said is was meant to be kinky and sexy and very funny BUT it was just S T R A N G E !!!! At the end I was just like "huh?????" you should watch it just to see how strange it is!!!!!!!!!!! It was only £2 from the supermarket but it said it had loads of awards and stuff - it must have been awarded by STRANGE people!

Main Course
Name something you are addicted to and describe how it affects your life.
Blogging - I bet most of us write that! but I am - blogging and general messing around on my computer. I had to send my lap top off to be fixed a little while ago - I felt like someone had chopped my right arm off - I hated it. I was so chuffed when I got it back. Some weekends, I go to stay at my mums and I get serious withdrawal symptoms!


Which instrument is your favourite to listen to?
The guitar - I love it - just so natural and calming - I wish I could play it but I just don't have the patience to learn. Bit like reading - I just wanna read super quick - like ET when he can wizz through a book in seconds - especially if it is a good one. I wanna learn guitar as if I was ET!!!

Check out Friday's Feast to visit more participants.

Fed Up........................

Ok guys, sorry I haven't been about for a few days. I have sprained my back AND have 2 buggered up knees. I need to have key hole surgery on my right knee and the doctor said that should help make it better for about 6 months to a year but there isn't actually anything they can do to make them completely better. So, limping around on dodgy knees with a mashed up back and carrying a baby is not too good at the mo. I am knackered and just wanna sleep - one of those days where I actually don't feel much like being a mummy today - I would like to just take myself off to bed BUT I can't so the little one is having a nap at the mo, I'm trying to read all 107 google reader updates and thought I better explain to you guys that I wasn't ignoring you all - honest :o)

Wednesday, 12 March 2008

Wordless Wednesday #2

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Monday, 10 March 2008

Another Award

How cool is this....I just got another award. It made me cry (nice tears of course). Thank you so much Jen :o)

Check what Jen had to say about me over at Tidbits Of The Tippets. She is so nice :o)

The Ultimate Blog Party

Ultimate Blog Party 2008

Welcome to the Blog Party! Hellooooooooo :o)

I'm playing along with the Blog Party over at 5 Minutes for Mom. If you haven't joined the party head on over there and join in! It is a great way to get your blog noticed and meet new blogging buddies!

I want you to all feel comfortable over at my pad so I'll tell you a little bit more about me so you can get to know me a little better :o)

I'm a young 30ish single mummy to the most gorgeous little girl :o) Her Daddy and I are not together but we are good friends and he sees her twice a week and every weekend. Every other weekend he has her overnight at his house which has taken a little getting used to but it totally melts my heart watching them play together. I have never met my Dad so I made a promise to little Loola and myself that I will do everything in my power to make sure she has a relationship with her Father. It has most certainly been a difficult ride but I think we are in a good place now and it is so much easier being friends.

I have a wonderful relationship with my mum and she makes the best Nana - we are really good friends and since Loola came along we spend so much more time together which is really nice - she has diabetes though and doesn't look after herself properly - sort it out Nana!! ;o)

I am not working anymore as I am at home looking after Loola and I love it!

I love my friends and family - I don't have a huge family and my friends make up a huge part of it anyway - quality over quantity I say ;o)

My gorgeous girl - what can I say - she is beautiful and has the most amazing eyes. Someone asked my mum if we had stuck false eyelashes on her the other day!!!! LMAO (just to make it clear...we hadn't) :o) She is 6 months old and has her own little personality that I just adore. She is a proper little comedian and has me laughing all the time. I have another blog solely about her - check it out if you want :o) - The Growing Years!

Loola's Dad thinks I have OCD (he may be right) I don't think I am THAT bad but everything DOES have it's place. I'm a planner and an organiser - I can't help it - I'm a virgo - that's just what we do! However, when my home is not looking like a show house it looks like a bomb has exploded! Nobody (except my mum and a few of my best friends) has ever seen it looking like that though so everybody makes fun of me when I say my house is a mess...they just say "yeah right, what is there one crumb on the floor?", however, those few who have had the unfortunate honour of seeing my messy house on explosion day KNOW! ;o) That's what I mean in my profile when I said I have monica (from Friends TV series) tendancies - she is a bit like that too!

I LOVE to dance and twice a year I go with all my buddies to the Southport Soul Weekender (this will now be narrowed down to once a year now that I am a mummy).

Not sure what else to tell ya - I love questions though so feel free to ask away if you have any :o)

Grab a glass of rose wine (I will be) and enjoy yaself....these are a few pics that sum up a little about me and my little Loola XXXXXXXXX Cheers for stopping by - go on, leave a comment - I LOVE THEM :o) besides, if I know you stopped by I can check you out too XX

How Many Colours Can You Name In 5 Mins?


I was totally stuck after 2 minutes and then the ones that I still could think of I couldn't spell properly anyway so it wouldn't accept them LMAO - he he

Poor Bunny - Oh No!!!!

Little Loola was given this cute bunny with huge plastic teething ears by some friends when she was born. She has only just started to actually take any notice of it and then what does "bad" mummy go and do???????? I maimed the poor thing! Loola is a very "sicky" baby, pukes all the time and the other day she chucked up all over the bunny's head - YUK! So, mummy put the bunny in the washing machine BUT....I forgot that it was in there and subsequently tumble dried it with the rest of the stuff in the machine - when it came out I couldn't for the life of me figure out what was wrong with it - it just didn't look right. I stared at it for ages and then OH NO! Look what I did to it - I melted it's ears! They were all gooey and fluff was all stuck in them so I had to amputate them :o(

Before and after pics:

Meme Monday #2

It's time for Meme Monday, where we save up our memes and awards and post them on Mondays. Then I go over to Melanie's Blog and sign Mr. Linky so that we can all visit each other.


I received this award from KC for commenting on her post, thank you KC!

I received these from Foster Me Up for being one of the first 10 to comment on her post, thank you :o)

Pam over at Random Thoughts had this award up for grabs so I grabbed it ;o)

Pam also got tagged to do the Top Five Hottest Blog Meme and she chose me, yes me as one of her top 5! I am so chuffed - I just called my mum to tell her :o) Thank you so much Pam - it really means a lot to me!!



I was having a look at Cricket's Hearth blog and saw this Book Meme.

Here are the rules.
1. Pick up the nearest book (of at least 123 pages).
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the next three sentences.
5. Tag some people & post a comment here once you post it to your blog, so I can come see.

So here goes:

I smiled from ear to ear, as I jumped into her arms and held her tightly. As she ran her hand through my hair, I began to cry. Mother cried too, and I began to feel that my bad times were finished.

This book and the ones that follow it are truly inspiring ! If you haven't read them, pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease do!

A Child Called IT - Dave Pelzer

His brother Richard Pelzer has also written 2 books which are just as good!

As for tagging 5 people, I would like to tag 5 people participating in Meme Monday who have not already participated in making a Book Meme. So, if you are reading this and haven't done it....give it a go and let me know so I can come check it out :o)



Pam at Random Thoughts chose me as one of her top 5 blogs and then tagged me to do the same meme so here are my top 5 :o)


1. Simply choose five blogs you want to be included in your “top five list”.
2. Give a short line or explanation why you put them on your list. One explanation for each blog.
3. Now tag as many blogs as you want.You can also tag those blogs you have listed in your TOP FIVE….you can also put your own blog in your list if you want
4. For those who have been tagged, you can also vote for a blog that has been nominated already (besides,this is what this meme is intended for,to know how many bloggers will nominate your blog)
5. Submit your TOP FIVE HOTTEST BLOG ENTRY here .
(Submitted blogs will be the only one to be included in the tally)
6. Remember:Submissions of entries starts from MARCH 1 2008 to MARCH 25 2008 and top five hottest blog winners will be announced on MARCH 29 2008
7. Enjoy listing your top five!!!

1. Syd from Singlesupermama - she is a very special friend that looked after me when I moved to Seattle when I was about 15. We went to the same school together for a few months until I moved back to England - I love her! She is SINGLE and she is SUPER! She is a fantastic mummy and so so funny - check out her blog!

2. Pam from Random Thoughts - I really enjoy her blog, she is random just like me and very down to earth and honest. She says it how it is and I love that. She leaves lovely comments on my posts which really cheer me up and she chose me as one of her top 5 which I think is just fab seen as she has so many to choose from :o) ooooh, and she is really helpful with computery kinda stuff and all my random questions!

3. Melanie from Livin With Me - She is also a really helpful chick and we seem to have lots in common. She has cool stuff on her blogs that I keep pinching - I like all ther little quizzes and memes and if if wasn't for Melanie and her Meme Monday I wouldn't have met all these other cool bliggy bloggy people.

4. Nathan from Confessions Of A CF Husband - I love his story about his family. I log on daily to check how they are all doing. Little baby Gwyneth is just gorgeous and is almost 2 pounds!! Tricia is awaiting a double lung transplant and it could be happening soon. Nathan is just AMAZING - he doesn't understand why and that makes him even more amazing! I love them all :o)

5. Jen from Tidbits Of The Tippets - I really enjoy her blog and we both waffle or ramble as she calls it :o) We are both newbies to blogging but are both addicted.

There are many other blogs I love to read - I feel awful not being able to pick everyone :o(

Anyone else wishing to participate, please feel free to do so and ensure that after posting go here and list your 5 nominations.

I tag the above 5 nominees (apart from the ones that have already played) and anybody else who would like to play.



I saw this over at Skittle's Place.....

1. Of all the people you know, whose name suits them the best?

Beanie (one of my best buddies) Her name is Jane really but I call her Beanie. It used to be Janey Bean and then just ended up as Beanie - she IS Beanie - it just suits her.

2. Describe what you think a creature from outer space might look like.
Lime green with a big oval head with huge blue eyes. Little ears on tentacles (tentacles not testicles) ! A cute little button nose and a cheeky little smile but no teeth! All it would say was "meek meek meek meek" and hug people. He also runs everywhere extremely fast! Don't ask me where all that came from - randomness at it's best!

3. If you could control one aspect of your death--except the timing--what would you do?
I would make sure I didn't burn to death - I have a thing about being in a fire - I DON'T want to be in a fire - I don't want to melt!

4. What is the largest amount of money you have earned in one day?
About £160 I think. Double time on a bank holiday :o)

5. Show and Tell - What comes to mind first when you see this picture? Or, tell a story if it reminds you of one.
It makes me think - Where do they all get changed? and do they have clothes on under their red robes? How often do they shave their heads? Are they all men? and how nice that they are all coming together and praying (I think they are praying) unless they are doing pilates???????? THE WORLD IS WONDERFUL AND DIVERSE :o) Oh, and if I was one of them I would be hoping the dude in front of me washed his feet LOL ;o)

You can play this at Curious As A Cat.