Monday, 21 January 2008

What am I going to do?????????????

My lap top is being collected in the morning by the tech guys as my ethernet wotsit and graphic card are knackered. They said they should have it back to me in 7 to 10 days. 7 to 10 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What the hell am I going to do without any internet access?? No email, no photo editing, no blogging, no reading blogs, no just general checking out the blogosphere!! I'm flipping hooked! I really want to keep up with what is going on with Nathan, Tricia and Gwyneth too! I'm hoping and praying that by the time I get my computer back Tricia and Gwyneth will have been reunited and there will be pictures posted of the 3 of them together.

Saturday, 19 January 2008

Amazing! - There is HOPE out there :o)

I should be going to bed but I can't stop reading this:

This story is truly amazing. It gives me hope, hope in people. It restores my faith in humanity. I wish I had the deep faith that Nathan has. I wish I understood why god does what he does. I often tell myself that everything happens for a reason and it does help me during hard times but I still don't fully understand that reason. I wish I could have a questions and answers session with God so I could truly know the answers to the thousands of questions I have. Like:

Why when you take people do you have to do it in such a cruel, hurtful and painful way sometimes? Why can't they just go quietly to sleep if it is their time to go?

Why can't you take the nasty, horrible, twisted people that are on this earth? and leave behind the nice, kind and thoughtful people?

I just looked at this video too and balled my eyes out. 99 Balloons:

Why does God reveal himself through a tiny sick baby? and why for only 99 days? I just don't understand WHY??? and I really want to. I really want to have TRUE trust and faith in God.

Also, although I believe there is a God, I don't believe that someone that doesn't believe in him won't get into heaven. There are good people from all sorts of religions, we don't all beleive in the same God do we? I don't think he will turn a good person away. I don't think he will say "sorry, you can't come here cos you are a muslim or a buddhist or a hindu" I think as long as you have been a good person on this earth and tried to do your best by other people he will open up the door to you.

I also don't get the whole Jesus thing. I don't understand why he would offer his son to die. Should he not be protecting his son with all his worth? As a mother, it's my job to protect my daughter. I would never let any harm come to her so I don't understand it :o( So, I DO believe in God but I'm not so sure about the Jesus part.

Anyway, it is late and I'm sure baba will be up early again so I really should get some sleep. I'll be thinking of Nathan, Tricia and Gwyneth again tonight - my angels can watch over them :o)

Monday, 14 January 2008

Get out when her lips turn blue!... Are you barmy?

OK, so it was swimming lesson number 2 this morning which lasted all of 5 minutes because the pool water was Sooooooooooo cold! Last week the water was too hot but as far as I'm concerned, it was lovely. This week it was freezing! They are having problems with the thermostat apparently and have been since before Christmas! At this very moment I am trying to get a refund on the swimming course so we can go and do a different one somewhere else. Somewhere where the changing room floor is not filthy and sticky! Somewhere where there is more than ONE baby changing table as it is a class specifically for babies, yes babies as opposed to ONE baby! Somewhere where the teacher spends more time talking to the class about swimming than talking to one of the mums in the pool about the school run. I figured they must know each other from the kind of conversations they were having. Somewhere where the teacher actually gets in the pool with us! Somewhere where the teacher doesn't say "The babies probably won't stay in the pool for more than 10 minutes, let me know if their lips turn blue, it is their lips you should look at, not their hands".

Considering how cold it was, I'm surprised she didn't cry when we got in the water. She kinda had this blank look on her face as if to say, "Am I supposed to enjoy this mummy?". Her little lips started to shiver and that was it. "I'm flipping freezing so she must be freezing, her lips are shivering, we are getting out!" I announced. The teacher said we should speak to the manager as the pool was cold AGAIN! It seems like this is a regular occurrence - I was not impressed!