I have not cried for the last few days! It can't be the "happy pills" working yet as they don't kick in for at least a few weeks so I reckon it is just cos I can see light at the end of the tunnel. My time of the month is over and that makes a huge difference. I am just left with about 10 massive spots on my face which is really attractive...not! I cleaned up my kitchen and lounge which is a start. I decided to do one thing at a time instead of trying to do it ALL!
On another note, we woke up this morning to the door buzzer going and I had totally forgot that the sky man was coming round to install sky plus. I looked a right old state! Mashed up bed head hair, spots not covered with any make-up, boobs hanging as no bra on, top with Kadyn's dribble stains all over it! Hmmm...Nice! Anyway, I let him in and went to get Kadyn out of my bed. I walked back into the lounge chatting away to the guy and then looked at Kadyn....OH.MY.GOD! My child looked like an alien baby!!!! He must of thought she had some kind of skin disfigurement. She had dark green snot all over her face. When I say all over, I mean ALL over!! From above her eyes to under her chin! Thick, dried and crusted SNOT! Totally caked all over her poor little face! I quickly proceeded to remove the snot but it was like flipping green glue stuck to my baby's face! After lots of wet wipes and plenty of tears she finally looked like a human baby again!
Tuesday, 22 July 2008
There Is Light And Snot
Thursday, 17 July 2008
Post Natal Depression
Went to the docs today as been very tearful for weeks now. Had to do a questionnaire thing and it all added up to the fact I have post natal depression! I have suffered from depression about 7 years ago and was worried throughout my pregnancy that I would get post natal depression especially as the circumstances around and during my pregnancy were not the best BUT I didn't get it! I was so chuffed with myself and proud of myself for doing it all on my own and coping with everything and then all of a sudden .... BLAM! It kinda came at me from nowhere! I've had the odd few days over the last 11 months where I have had the odd day here and there with crying and feeling down but I normally get over it pretty quick and pull myself together but this time the tears just seem to not want to go away! So, almost 11 months later the poxy depression has caught up with me and there was me thinking I could escape it!!!!!!
I have no motivation with ANYTHING really. I get upset as I don't have many friends to do stuff with during the day and it can be quite lonely on your own all day and all night with a baby. So to fix that I went online and met other mums in the same sort of position as me. Although they are not single mums they are still finding it hard during the day and crave a bit of adult conversation so I made friends with them and arranged meet ups etc.. BUT....I can't be bothered. I can't be bothered to get dressed, wash my hair, do my make-up, iron my clothes, leave the house - I just don't have the energy and all I want to do is sleep! It is rubbish - I am complaining about not having friends and then when I do I don't want to see them!! Anyway, like I said, I went to the docs and have been given some happy pills so hopefully I can get my umph back and get back to my normal self.
Kadyn is currently eating a magazine so better go sort her out - why is it that they always want everything they are not meant to have rather than all the cool toys they have got? LOL
Anyway - hopefully this is the first step to getting fixed!!
Thursday, 10 April 2008
So Cute....
Just went to check on my Little Loola - she had shuffled her way up to the top of the cot, grabbed hold of the pink donkey (at least I think it is a donkey) and fallen asleep - AHHHHHHHHHHH
I am gonna update her blog tomorrow (I hope) as I have been a little rubbish lately - have so much to tell too :o)
Monday, 10 March 2008
Poor Bunny - Oh No!!!!
Little Loola was given this cute bunny with huge plastic teething ears by some friends when she was born. She has only just started to actually take any notice of it and then what does "bad" mummy go and do???????? I maimed the poor thing! Loola is a very "sicky" baby, pukes all the time and the other day she chucked up all over the bunny's head - YUK! So, mummy put the bunny in the washing machine BUT....I forgot that it was in there and subsequently tumble dried it with the rest of the stuff in the machine - when it came out I couldn't for the life of me figure out what was wrong with it - it just didn't look right. I stared at it for ages and then OH NO! Look what I did to it - I melted it's ears! They were all gooey and fluff was all stuck in them so I had to amputate them :o(
Before and after pics:
Wednesday, 5 March 2008
Sunday, 2 March 2008
Happy Mothers Day!
Guess what, Guess what!!! Little Loola said "Mama" for the first time today! She was not very well last night and had a temperature so Nana and I went over to Daddy's house to collect her (she was staying the night with him). He said he thought she had said "Mama" a few times that night while she was a bit tearful but this morning she definitely confirmed it - while changing her nappy she got a bit upset and looked at me and said "Mama Mama" - OH MY HEART MELTED! What a perfect gift for Mothers Day!!!!!!!!
Thursday, 14 February 2008
Fridge Letters - Yay, I'm officially a MUM !!!
I have always seen these as a sign that you have kids. I know I don't have Kid(s) but I do have ONE kid (well not so much "kid" yet but "baby" but she will be a "kid" soon) (well, not so much "soon" but hey I think you should be getting my drift now!).....so I bought some - now I feel like a mum! LMAO he he :o)
What does this look like???????????
Is it just me or does this new toy (which loola really likes to play with) look awfully like something else? It isn't too bad with all the rings around it but once she has yanked them all off ...............................
I know, I know, it’s a children’s toy! BUT......it does remind me of a “you know what”, especially the rounded top! I mean did they have to put that bit on it!!!! I reckon someone was killing themselves laughing when they designed that!!!!!
Wednesday, 12 December 2007
Nice....
I was playing a game with my baby daughter today where I sit on the sofa and she stands up on my knees holding my hands. We rocked back and forth, nose to nose, she giggled and smiled and then PUKED - right in my face! Not just a little bit, a HUGE amount of HOT puke. On the up side of things, my mouth wasn't open! Thank God! The sick went straight down my top and collected in between my boobs - another reminder of just how big my melons really are!!!!!!!!!!!! Nice...........
