Tuesday, 31 January 2017


So I have decided to write down what I'm thankful for each day. Something that went right, something I did or someone else did. Anything really that is positive!

So today I'm really pleased that I walked to school with the boys to collect Kadyn. I don't walk the boys as much as I should for one reason or another but as I'm feeling a lot better in myself and not in so much pain I've decided to focus on being better at getting them out and about on a regular basi. I know this will be good for them and good exercise for me and Kadyn too. I'm chuffed that I've done it two days in a row! Little steps....one day at a time!

I've also stayed within my calories for 2 days in a row!

My friend came over today for a chat because she was feeling down. I'm really glad she felt she could talk to me and that I might make things a little easier.

I apologised to Kadyn today for being too busy and being on the phone or the computer always working or reading something. I said that for the next half an hour I was turning the pc off and putting the phone down and that she had my 100% undivided attention. The smile on her face was priceless. We played role play for a while as she pretended to be a gymnast who broke her leg. Cody was the doctor and Smudge was the nurse! We chatted and hugged. It was lovely! I'm going to do that more often! 😊

Well, that turned into more than a one liner of what I'm grateful for! As per usual I've waffled on but hey ho....that's why my blog is named what it is I guess! 😂😂😂

Saturday, 16 July 2016

Nutter Moment

So it is Saturday morning and I'm waiting for my first drink, a cup of tea! I can't wait!

I will be honest and I have to admit that on Thursday night and Friday day/night I was thinking I was going to die! Dramatic I know but I honestly felt like utter shite! You have to have these blow up things on each leg to stop you having a blood clot and they blow up and down a bit like having your blood pressure taken every 10 seconds. You can only take them off to go to the loo or for a little walk. They are attached to the machine so when you are in bed you are literally tied to the bed with them. I felt like a loonie being restrained on the bed!

The worst part of the whole thing for me was the drain tube that goes down your nose, through your throat and into your tummy. It literally felt like I had two fingers stuck down my throat which of course makes me heave and retch which is the one thing you are not supposed to do when you have just had 80% of your stomach removed and stitched up! Plus each time I heave I pee my pants! Joys of having a child! I had to have that tube in for 6 hours and they were honestly the longest 6 hours of my life! I have never sat so still, trying very very hard not to swallow! When the nurse finally took that out, although it stung a bit, it was the best feeling! I could actually swallow without puking!

The next shitty bit was the fact you are not aloud to get into bed to sleep it off as you have been knocked out you need to get your lungs working again and also make sure you don't get a blood clot so you have to sit in a tall chair. I was soooooooo desperate to sleep and lay down. Probably a mixture of fibro, ME and the op all put together. I was so relieved when the nurse finally said I could go to bed at 7pm!

BUT......... by  the time you get into bed, the nurse attaches your feet to the pump things, covers you in blankets and you finally get comfy ........ you need to pee! Not a little pee either, like "I'm bursting for a pee" kinda pee! You can't get out of bed cos you are attached with your feet so you have to call for the nurse. You get all unattached and drag you fluid/pain/drip thing to the loo and you pee on a cardboard box cup thing as they have to measure how much you are peeing to make sure you are not dehydrated. Then you go through the whole mission of getting back into bed and getting all hooked up again. You get comfy and try to get to sleep....two mins later.... you need to pee! Argh!!!!! This went on all night long!!! At this point I actually thought to myself that I must be a complete and utter nutter as I had actually paid someone thousands of pounds to do this to me!!!!! I cried!

I must have got about half an hours kip! Friday was horrible. You have to sit in the chair all day long apart from when you have to do a little walk around the wards to try to get rid of the wind and get your body working properly again. You are so tired from not sleeping all night yet once again you are not aloud into bed as they want to keep you moving so you don't get a blood clot. I know they are being cruel to be kind but it is horrible sitting next to a bed when you are so exhausted and you are not aloud in it!

Friday night I finally got some sleep!! I don't know whether they give you less fluids but I wasn't peeing every 5 minutes so that was a relief. I woke up Saturday morning and thought "wow, I actually feel human again" Considering how shite I felt the night before the turn around was amazing!

Mr. Kelly came to see me, he said all went well and I was aloud to go home about 2pm after I had some clear soup for lunch!

Called my mum and she is coming to get me! Yay!!!

Thursday, 14 July 2016

Op Day!!!

So, I'm at the hospital in my lovely room at The Spire in Southampton. I had to be here for 6am so we left about 4.30am. Had a bit of a panic as Rudy was late and his silly phone isn't working properly so couldn't get hold of him. I was in my car and about to drive myself when he called to say he wasn't far off so thankfully he drove me down here, got me all settled in and then went off to work. So happy I finally found such a good one! Well worth the wait! :)

The nurse has just given me a tablet to relax me and a pain tab in preparation and just had all my obs done etc.. I've lost 7 lbs since starting the Liver Reducing Diet a week ago so that is Fab! Apparently I'm first into theatre so I'm well chuffed about that too! Just waiting for the surgeon Mr. Kelly to come and see me and then it's all systems go!!!!

Thursday, 30 June 2016

Got a Date!!!!

So my surgery day is July 14th!!! I am definitely more excited than nervous but I'm sure that may change as time goes on..... Now to read all about the diet I will need to follow post sleeve. I have joined about 5 forums on facebook all with people that have either had a bypass or sleeve or are due to have one so I'm learning all about the good and the bad bits so I'm prepared and know what to expect and can deal with it better.

Tuesday, 14 June 2016


So last night I had my consultation at Nuffield Health in Southampton with Mr. Kelly the surgeon that will perform my Sleeve Gastrectomy.

He  said he had patients who have fibro and some of them stayed the same, some got worse and some got much better so I know it isn't going to completely fix that, unless I'm one of the lucky ones.

We went through the difference with a Sleeve and a Bypass and he said the Sleeve would be the best option for me which is good as after reading tonnes of material, that's the option I was going for too!

He said he should be able to fit me in in a few weeks! Excited!!!

I'm going to be paying it off over the next 2 years so will be absolutely skint BUT hopefully I won't be spending half as much on food! ;)

Sunday, 12 June 2016


Tomorrow I start my journey to become healthy! So much has happened health wise over the last few years. My fibro kinda took over, I was diagnosed with ME and I went through CAT therapy which was brilliant but at the same time they changed my anti-depressant to Duloxetine (cymbalta) and it was NOT a good thing.....at all! It was great for a few weeks and then I went down hill, so instead of taking me off it, they upped the dose! This happened twice until I was on 60mg!!!

My blood pressure went up, my pain increased, my fatigue increased and I felt like shit! My mum had a stroke in 2015 and was put on another concoction of drugs and all of a sudden I though "That's me!, that's where I'm heading with high blood pressure, I'm gonna end up having a heart attack or a stroke"! My eating as usual was out of control and it consumed my life. What was I gonna eat next was all I could think about so of course my weight continued to go up!

I don't know what the final trigger was exactly but I realised I had to do something and it had to be something permanent and it needed to be done now!

I booked a consultation to see a surgeon on June 13th about Weight Loss Surgery!

And so the journey begins!

Friday, 10 June 2016

Time Flies!!!!

So, I thought I hadn't blogged for a long time but I had no idea just how long it had been! My last post was October 2012!!!! Seen as it is now June 2016 I'm completely shocked!!!

Anyhooooo..... I am about to make one of the biggest changes in my life in the next few days so watch this space!

Wednesday, 24 October 2012


My mum forwarded me this email and I think it is GREAT! Our jails should be like this!!!!! I'd vote him in :o)

You may remember Sheriff Joe Arpaio of Arizona , who painted the jail cells pink and made the inmates wear pink prison garb. Well.........

Oh, there's MUCH more to know about Sheriff Joe!

Maricopa County was spending approx. $18 million dollars a year on stray animals, like cats and dogs. Sheriff Joe offered to take the department over, and the County Supervisors said okay.

The animal shelters are now all staffed and operated by prisoners. They feed and care for the strays. Every animal in his care is taken out and walked twice daily. He now has prisoners who are experts in animal nutrition and behavior. They give great classes for anyone who'd like to adopt an animal. He has literally taken stray dogs off the street, given them to the care of prisoners, and had them place in dog shows.

The best part? His budget for the entire department is now under $3 million. Teresa and I adopted a Weimaraner from a Maricopa County shelter two years ago. He was neutered and current on all shots, in great health, and even had a microchip inserted the day we got him. Cost us $78.

The prisoners get the benefit of about $0.28 an hour for working, but most would work for free, just to be out of their cells for the day. Most of his budget is for utilities, building maintenance, etc. He pays the prisoners out of the fees collected for adopted animals.

I have long wondered when the rest of the country would take a look at the way he runs the jail system and copy some of his ideas. He has a huge farm, donated to the county years ago, where inmates can work, and they grow most of their own fresh vegetables and food, doing all the work and harvesting by hand.

He has a pretty good sized hog farm, which provides meat and fertilizer. It fertilizes the Christmas tree nursery, where prisoners work, and you can buy a living Christmas tree for $6 - $8 for the holidays and plant it later. 

Yup, he was re-elected last year with 83% of the vote.
Now he's in trouble with the ACLU again. He painted all his buses and vehicles with a mural that has a special hotline phone number painted on it, where you can call and report suspected illegal aliens. Immigrations and Customs Enforcement wasn't doing enough in his eyes, so he had 40 deputies trained specifically for enforcing immigration laws, started up his hotline, and bought 4 new buses just for hauling folks back to the border. He's kind of a 'Git-R-Dun' kind of Sheriff.





Sheriff Joe Arpaio (in Arizona ) who created the 'Tent City Jail':
**He has jail meals down to 40 cents a serving and charges the inmates for them.
**He stopped smoking and porno magazines in the jail.
**Took away their weights.
**Cut off all but 'G' movies.
**He started chain gangs so the inmates could do free work on county and city projects.
**Then he started chain gangs for women so he wouldn't get sued for discrimination.

**He took away cable TV until he found out there was a federal court order that required cable TV for jails, so he hooked up the cable TV again.....BUT only let in the Disney channel and the Weather channel.

**When asked why the weather channel, he replied, "So they will know how hot it's gonna be while they are working on my chain gangs."

**He cut off coffee since it has zero nutritional value.

**When the inmates complained, he told them, "This isn't The Ritz/Carlton...... If you don't like it, don't come back."

More On The Arizona Sheriff:

With temperatures being even hotter than usual in Phoenix (116 degrees just set a new record), the Associated Press reports:
About 2,000 inmates living in a barbed-wire-surrounded tent encampment at the Maricopa County jail have been given permission to strip down to their government-issued
pink boxer shorts. 

On Wednesday, hundreds of men wearing boxers were either curled up on their bunk beds or chatted in the tents, which reached 138 degrees inside the week before.

Many were also swathed in wet, pink towels as sweat collected on their chests and dripped down to their PINK SOCKS.

"It feels like we are in a furnace," said James Zanzot, an inmate who has lived in the TENTS for 1 year. "It's inhumane."

Joe Arpaio, the tough-guy sheriff who created the tent city and long ago started making his prisoners wear pink and eat bologna sandwiches, is not one bit sympathetic. He said Wednesday that he told all of the inmates, "It's 120 degrees in Iraq and our soldiers are living in tents too, and they have to wear full battle gear, but they didn't commit any crimes, so shut your mouths!"

Way to go, Sheriff!

Maybe if all prisons were like this one there would be a lot less crime and/or repeat offenders. Criminals should be punished for their crimes - not live in luxury until it's time for their parole, only to go out and commit another crime so they can get back in to live on taxpayers' money and enjoy things taxpayers can't afford to have for themselves.

Sunday, 29 July 2012

My Gorgeous Sister

Nana & The Rock Choir

Nana has joined the Rock Choir! She does all sorts of events and shows and this year she was singing in Woodley Shopping Centre! Go Nana!!

Monday, 4 June 2012

Queen's Jubilee Party

I went up to Birmingham with Jez for the bank holiday weekend. Kez had a Jubilee party and we all had a good catch up. Drunk way too much wine but had a good old dance to all the old tunes! Good times :o)

Thursday, 19 April 2012


Good!!! I have not felt this good for a loooooooooong time. Got all my meds sorted and the fibro under control. New vit supplements are working a treat!! And I feel back to being me again! Kadyn is a little comedian! Plus to top it all off met a lush new fella! All good on the home front then!!!!! :-) xx

Monday, 5 March 2012

Lost Mo Jo!

I've lost my mo jo! I can't find it anywhere! I was doing so well on my fitness pal and then had a really bad fibro week and it just seems to be continuing. I can't get my healthy head back on.....just wanna eat crap which I'm sure doesn't help how I feel. If you find my mo jo anywhere - please send it back to me :o) xxx

No Gold?

Too many people miss the silver lining because they're expecting gold.
(Maurice Setter)

Wednesday, 29 February 2012


I'm so tired! I can't even explain how tired I am. Not the tired like you get when you have been partying all night or if you had a bad nights sleep. The type of tired that you feel like there are lead weights attached to your eye lids. Like someone has drugged your drink with some kind of horse tranquilizer, the type when it feels like someone is squashing your head together. The type when you wake up in the morning and spend all day looking forward to bedtime just so you can go to sleep. The type that fills you with guilt cos you want to be a fun mum that has energy to play but all you want to do is close your eyes in a nice dark room and listen to absolutely nothing! I do NOT want this crappy Fibromyalgia and it's chronic fatigue! I wish it would GO AWAY!

Friday, 20 January 2012

On a roll....or should I say salad!

Day 2 of healthy eating plan and looking forward to this salad. Blimey.....not sure what has happened to me lol xx

Monday, 16 January 2012

What will be will be....

"Sometimes we struggle so vigorously with
a vision of how things are "supposed to be"
that we lose sight of what is "meant to be"."

Saturday, 19 November 2011

Little Me

My First Home

This is the first place I moved to on my own....Shakespear Way. We drove past it to show Kadyn and took this pic :o)

Tuesday, 15 November 2011