Thursday, 17 July 2008

Post Natal Depression

Went to the docs today as been very tearful for weeks now. Had to do a questionnaire thing and it all added up to the fact I have post natal depression! I have suffered from depression about 7 years ago and was worried throughout my pregnancy that I would get post natal depression especially as the circumstances around and during my pregnancy were not the best BUT I didn't get it! I was so chuffed with myself and proud of myself for doing it all on my own and coping with everything and then all of a sudden .... BLAM! It kinda came at me from nowhere! I've had the odd few days over the last 11 months where I have had the odd day here and there with crying and feeling down but I normally get over it pretty quick and pull myself together but this time the tears just seem to not want to go away! So, almost 11 months later the poxy depression has caught up with me and there was me thinking I could escape it!!!!!!

I have no motivation with ANYTHING really. I get upset as I don't have many friends to do stuff with during the day and it can be quite lonely on your own all day and all night with a baby. So to fix that I went online and met other mums in the same sort of position as me. Although they are not single mums they are still finding it hard during the day and crave a bit of adult conversation so I made friends with them and arranged meet ups etc.. BUT....I can't be bothered. I can't be bothered to get dressed, wash my hair, do my make-up, iron my clothes, leave the house - I just don't have the energy and all I want to do is sleep! It is rubbish - I am complaining about not having friends and then when I do I don't want to see them!! Anyway, like I said, I went to the docs and have been given some happy pills so hopefully I can get my umph back and get back to my normal self.

Kadyn is currently eating a magazine so better go sort her out - why is it that they always want everything they are not meant to have rather than all the cool toys they have got? LOL

Anyway - hopefully this is the first step to getting fixed!!


syd said...

Honey, good for you. I'm SO SORRY you've been having a difficult time, but I'm so glad that you've found someone to talk to and get on a path to feeling better. Being a "mum" is HARD ENOUGH as it is, good lord, don't we all know it. Love you love you love you, take care of yourself and that little cutie pie.


mama meji said...

When I had to stay home for 2 months to take care of Matt - I had my moments too...actually, I get my moments when I am away from my son-even if it only means I am in the office! And yes, I haven't been into socializing lately-except online! But it's good to have my parent and sister close at hand.

Hope you are getting the ooomph back!

BTW, thanks for the kind words you left on my blog.

Charlie said...

Hi, i just came across your blog when i was looking to know that i wasn't alone in this hard parenting business. It's made smile and i've enjoyed reading a few entries, i hope you don't mind.

NuttyGal said...

Thanks for all your lovely comments guys :o)

Charlie - I tried to write back to you but it says I can't see your profile. Feel free to drop by any time you like :o)

Jen said...

Oh Sweetie! I just LOVE YA to pieces! If I lived close by, I'd come over and we could hang out in our PJ's with no make up and hair all a mess together and just veg! I'd let you nap and watch your sweet princess or do whatever ya wanted. I can feel for you here, although I know we are in different situations, but the whole being home with the kids day in and day out, can really do a number on ya! I've been eating like a cow and crying at the drop of a hat. It's insane. I've got my 'happy' pills, just need to take them! ((HUGS))) are being sent your way!