Wednesday 25 June 2008

Pounds AND inches.....going going going!!

Another 3.6 pounds gone so that is a total of 15.2 pounds all together which is over a stone! That's in just 3 weeks! Feels like about 3 years though I have to say! (a stone is 14 pounds for you USA bods that don't know). So that is my first stone GONE!! So, if I can do that well and I have not been perfect on it, just think what I could do if I stuck to the rules 100% and WAS perfect! So, that's what I'm gonna try to do this week!!

Oh, and inches!! We got measured again this week and I have lost a whopping 6 1/2 inches off my waist. Another 2 1/2 off my bust and also 2 off my hips!! Excellent !!!!!!!!

I also got my self respect back and sorted out my love life! I am officially young free and PROPERLY single. Got rid of half hearted substitutions and feel so much better now :o) I was hanging on to ifs buts and maybes and felt like my life was on hold waiting for someone else to make their mind up! No longer!! I made MY mind up instead!! I know it is gonna be a bit of a tough road now and then but right now I'M COOL and feel POSITIVE :o)

Friday 20 June 2008

The Devil Cat

This is proof that the cat is definitely a DEVIL cat!

Wednesday 18 June 2008

A Little Bit More Gone

Another 2.8 pounds has vacated my body!!!!!!!! Wooooo Hooooo!! Considering I had a very difficult week and cheated a little I am very pleased. I tell you what, it is HARD not EATING! Anyway, this week is going to be a good week. I decided to try the Thai chilli soup instead of having vanilla milkshake EVERY day 4 times a day! It was actually quite nice, not bad. I better go now as I have physio on my back. I just dropped Kadyn off at Nursery for the first time!

Saturday 14 June 2008

I Must Be Getting Old!

You know what? I must be getting old as I've really got into bird watching! I love it when a new kind of bird lands on my feeder and I get all excited wondering what he is. My friend came over for lunch the other day and we were sat watching the wildlife and she announced "ooooh, you have a nut hatch on your feeder!" Apparently they are quite rare. I proceeded to tell her all about my woodpecker and thrush family as my squirrels came over and peered into my lounge - I love it! It is like a little wildlife haven, that is until the devil black cat comes round trying to kill everything. Don't get me wrong, I love cats! I love animals in general, they are much nicer than humans if you ask me! BUT, I don't like THIS cat! I stand at my patio doors yelling at him to go away and he just looks at me as if I'm mad. My neighbours probably think I am mad but anyway, that's not the point. He just stares at me then carries on trying to KILL things! The other week I looked into the garden and one of my squirrels was sunbathing on his back with all his legs stuck up in the air! He was of course DEAD! I went over and picked him up and put him inside the bushes. My mum said I should put him in the bin but I just couldn't do that, that seemed awful to put him in with all the rubbish, poor little thing. Anyway, without wanting to go into too much detail, it was death caused by eye removal. One eye was just missing! So, I have been trying to work out who the murderer was. I have 2 suspects. The first is a huge nasty big crow who goes around bullying all the other birds and chasing the squirrels when they get some bread. The second one is the devil cat! Or they could be in it together!! The cat does the killing and the crow does the eye removal! Until I know the culprit, they are both not in my good books! I know the whole thing about innocent until proven guilty but hey, they are both mean and nasty dudes!

So, I only have 3 squirrels in my tree now. I had to buy some squirrel proof bird feeders cos they chewed my plastic ones to bits when their nuts ran out trying to get into the birds stash!

My friend Jez came over last night and I was showing him pictures of Kadyn and he saw the pics of my squirrels and birds and was all concerned as to why I was taking pictures of "animals". "It's just a squirrel" he repeated about 10 times! Anyhoo, I know it is JUST a squirrel and JUST a bird but I like them, I like them a lot!



Friday 13 June 2008

No More 13!!!

I am no longer 13 stone something, I am now 12 stone something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am NEVER going to be 13 stone something EVER again!!!! I am not going to update my weight ticker wotsit until my official weigh in next week but I think I have lost another pound according to MY scales!! Love It!!!! I was feeling a bit deflated with the whole thing the other day and then I watched a programme on the TV about big babies. Babies that were born to obese women and the babies were a whole stone when they were born! One was 15 pounds!!! Poor baba's!! Then the mums were feeding them whole bags of chips and junk food. One baby was having a pint of milk every 2 hours!!! The mums seemed to think it was funny but I just felt awful! Those poor little baba's don't stand a chance! Anyway, it set me right back into the right frame of mind - I'm on a roll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woooo Hoooo!

Wednesday 11 June 2008

Only 13 More!

One week down only 13 more weeks to go. I have decided to narrow it down a bit more so it doesn't seem like quite such a hurdle. Just taking 1 month at a time! I MISS food, not cos I'm hungry as I'm not at all but just cos I miss food. I MISS eating! Anyway, I had 2 tiny hiccups but instead of it completely cocking up the diet or turning them into major hiccups, I drew a line under them and moved on and I have lost a whopping total of 8.8 pounds in ONE week!!! I am drinking about 3 litres of water but will try this week to get that up to 4 litres.

When you get to class each week you have to fill in a sheet to say which milkshakes,soups or bars you want for the following week. There is banana,chocolate,caramel,raspberry,strawberry and vanilla milkshake. Chicken,mushroom or Thai soup and about 3 different bars. The bars taste the same as far as I'm concerned and just taste like chewy powder yukiness. The chicken soup isn't that bad, just tastes like normal cupasoup which I'm also not a huge fan of. You have to have 4 things a day so 28 in total. Most people's lists are very varied with different flavoured shakes and soups and a bar each day (you can only have 1 bar a day). My list was easy! 22 vanilla shakes and 6 choc ones please! (and even then I only ordered chocolate ones cos I didn't want everyone to think I was a total loon!) I am definitely an all or nothing person. That is my personality all over. Do something obsessively for a week or 2 until I can't stand it anymore. Then stay off it for a while then all of a sudden back on it obsessively. Why can't I just do a little of everything??? LOL Anyway, I'm waffling again!

So, I'm 8.8 pounds lighter than I was last week - Wooooooooo Hoooooooooo! I actually feel much better too, not as tired all the time.

Better go as Loola has got the hang of crawling more than 3 steps forwards now and is on her way into the kitchen!!!

Sunday 8 June 2008

One Step, Two Steps....

I did some exercise! I went over to mums and we went to dinton pastures which has some lovely lakes that you can walk round. It was really sunny and there were lots of people out having picnics and stuff. We walked round the whole BIG lake which is about 3 miles I think! Mum has a bad back too but it is something different to mine and she finds it easier to walk slower where I find it better if I really strut and go quite fast so that is a bit difficult. I sometimes strut off ahead of her and then strut back to her as we go around. Anyway - I am proud that I got off my fat bum and did some EXERCISE! Yay Hay!!!!!!

Daddy just called to say he is on his way. He was meant to have Kadyn back by 6 but he is never on time! Looking forward to seeing her :o)

Day 5 Of Lighter Life

Well, amazingly, I'm NOT hungry! No FOOD for the last 4 days! You would think on 530 calories a day I would be STARVING but I'm not. The milkshakes add up to 530 cals by the way just in case I started to confuse you. Your body goes into ketosis which means it uses the energy in the FAT you have stored in your body and believe me I have enough of it so I'm feeling COOL! I didn't drink as much as I should have yesterday so today I am on a mission to do better with the water AND do some exercise!!!!! My back feels much better this morning so gonna finish my cleaning now and then jump in the shower and head on over to my mums. Daddy will bring Kadyn home tonight so I have the day to myself and I'm sure she is having lots of fun with her Daddy.

Water, Water, Water............................................

Saturday 7 June 2008

A Bit Of This & A Bit Of That!

OK, so I haven't been around for a while. I've had so much going on and just haven't been in the "blogging zone". I think I just blogged myself out! Also, I'm not lucky enough to blog totally honestly about what is going on in my life as I have readers that would be hurt or offended or affected by what I wrote about so I don't write about it but I wish I could if that makes sense???

Anyway, I've had a tough few weeks but I'm sorting myself out! My diet went totally to pot and I ended up putting weight on, getting all upset about it and deleting my diet blog. I just don't have the time to do as much as I want with the 2 blogs I already have and cos it wasn't going well it just seemed like a mission and a chore rather than something I enjoyed.

I am finally in the zone now and last Tuesday I started the Lighter Life Diet! It is a bit extreme I know but I AM GOING TO DO IT! I have a friend who did it and went from a size 18 to size 10 in 14 weeks! In the 14 week foundation plan you lose on average 3 stone! BUT......you are not aloud to eat ANY FOOD! You have 4 milkshakes a day which give you all the protein, vitamins & minerals that you need to stay healthy and they are yummy which is a bonus! You have a 2 hour counselling session a week which is the bit I really wanted. I have yo yo dieted for years and I need to work out why I have such a crap relationship with food! You have to get the ok from your doctor and they see you monthly too. Anyway, I have been doing it for 4 days so far and I have already lost 7 pounds! Flipping Fantastic!!!!!!!!!!! You have to drink 4 litres of water a day which I am struggling to do as I usually go days without drinking ANYTHING (bad I know) but I am just about managing just over 3 litres and I'm trying to get it up a bit each day.

I have to keep telling myself it is JUST for 3 months, 14 measly weeks and I will have lost all this flabber labber and be slim again. After the 14 weeks they start to introduce food slowly back into your diet. That way you get to know what foods are good for you individually and what foods are trigger foods. Trigger foods are ones that make you more hungry and want to overeat etc. Everyone has different trigger foods. The way they see it is that if you have a problem with alcohol or drugs they remove them TOTALLY from your system so that's what they are doing with the food as FOOD is my DRUG and right now it is making me ill. It is making me fat and miserable and I wanna fix it! I had actually asked my doctor for counselling but was told that because I don't make myself throw up it is not officially classed as an eating disorder. How stupid is that??????! So, I stuff my face and don't throw up which is making me FAT - surely that is still a problem? Anyway, obviously not in the official medical terms! SO, that's why I started Lighter Life, mainly for the counselling as I want to get to the bottom of WHY I binge eat especially when I know it makes me so miserable.

Blimey, can't believe I just said all that out loud!

Kadyn (aka Little Loola) has been much much more active and wanting far more attention, another reason why I have not been blogging as much as I need to entertain her way more than I used to. She has started crawling now and I have been slightly, only slightly mind you, better at keeping her blog updated. Daddy just came to pick her up as she is spending the weekend with him. I am quite relieved as my back is really sore today and I find it really difficult to pick her up and stuff which is very frustrating for both of us.

I am going to TRY to tidy up my house now as it is so much easier without Kadyn around. She gets all upset if I go in a different room to her and if I take her in the room and try to hoover she screams the place down. I don't know why she hates the hoover so much!

After that I'm gonna go over to my Mum's and do the Naming Ceremony invitations or at least try to and possible clean my car. Although I'm tempted to get some little dude to do it at one of the drive in ones - hmmm, that sounds like a much better idea.

Right, finally a BIG SORRY to all the blogging buddies that I have not been over to see lately like Pam and Melanie. I will try to catch up as soon as poss. However, I'm scared to look at Melanie's as she writes SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many posts, I bet there is like 568 to look at! LMAO She is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better at keeping up than me!!!!!!!!!!

A big sorry to Jen too as because she went private a little while ago (which I totally understand) she doesn't show up in my google reader anymore. I should make sure I go over to her blog as soon as I've finished looking at the reader wotsit more often!

And my best blogging buddie of all SYD! I love ya, I read your blog all the time, I'm just rubbish at commenting as much as I really want to! I think I will come back to your posts and write what I wanna say once I have done Kadyns lunch, or changed her bum, or put her to bed and then before I know it a month has gone by!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, gotta go pee AGAIN - guess that what drinking 4 litres of water a day does!!! Could you imagine if I was going on a long car journey! Nightmare! :o)